Quote of the Day

It is a painful thing to look at your own trouble and know that you yourself and no one else has made it.

Sophocles (496 BC-406 BC)

Watching Extreme Makeover: Home Edition always, always, always makes me cry. At least 3 times.
I think it is the most beautiful thing... giving people a beautiful and functional place to live, making home a haven that they never imagined their finances could afford. The show's over and I want to cry again.

It's inspiring.... the whole "you may encounter many defeats, but do not be defeated" thing.

As life's moving faster and we're having more responsibilities, more people depending on us, more of us depending on ourselves, we're encountering more and more defeats. But we need to realize that we can still grow from them, can still come out of it all.

A lot of these days are heartbreaking, but what more can we do but try to make good out of our situations? I hope everyone has a happy holidays... you may not have gifts to give or receive, you may not even have a home to put a tree up, but enjoy it with the people you love, that love you.

I love all of you. Thank you for your love.

Blog About It

Let's see if this makes any sense in the morning

i wanna be the kinda writa
that a sista can aspira to a
perfect compilation of the
twisted plans she's makin and
i just wanna be the kind of love
that makes you want to see above
the broken lines of hungry lust
that twist inside your needing lungs...

I just wanna inspire
The fire
Within

And I don't want to expire
The desire
in sin

No, that stopped making sense 14 hours ago.
But maybe you'll get it.
Maybe you'll see.

I feel like I've been neglecting my clarity. Clarity comes to me through writing. Notes, poems, entries, checklists... it's all the same to me. The written word is the only way for me to sort out the jumbled mush in my brain.

So, I decided... about 5 minutes ago... that I would set some goals for me. Here and now so that I can always look back and.... realize how I've failed them. haha. I guess this is along the lines of resolutions... a little early.

1) Budget my money better. I know I can be more frugal. I'm not a big spender as is... but I could deny that gyro I'm craving when my hunger could be just as easily satisfied with a tuna sandwich made at home. I could give myself an allowance so I know exactly where my money's going when. It's kinda shocking when you realize how much money you spend a month on food.

2) I still don't think "eating right" is a plausible goal for me right now. What I'm more interested in is cleansing my system. Everyday I just feel like I have so much shit in me and it just weighs me down and feel like crap. So, i'm guessing this would entail drinking more water, eating more whole grains, getting better digestive health, sweating out some toxins and trying one of those herbal detoxers. I'm tired of feeling so sloth-y.

3) READ MORE! just to keep up with my classes... but hopefully also to discover some new loves ;-)

4) get back my creative edge. write more, play more guitar, do more scrapbooking, do more designing... just get it back, somehow.

5) get on a good financial track. with an income and everything ;-). this one may take awhile...


that's pretty much it :-). not too impossible