What is the cause of suffering? being over-worked? under-loved? having "bad things" just "happen"?

not being on vacation?

now, I had an above-expectations wonderful kind of vacation. i would have loved to have written everything down as there are certain memories I'm sure I have already forgotten, but that was not plausible during my short 6 day vacay, nor even desireable... so from what i remember, abbreviated...

first plane ride with hubby, great views, great conversation. arrived in orlando, met up with the fam. began the eating/spending frenzy at outback, explored the resorts... wowzers! went to city walk and saw a GREAT live band. Orange Avenue. look em up. back to the villa, boys went to the pool. I got a pool-side massage... ahh :-). Team Carin-Titot raped at wii bowling. got sleep, yey!....spent most of the next day relaxing, chillin on the porch. finally got to go to the outlets. dropped like $300, but great purchases... <3 eating. enjoyed some 2 for 1 mojitos! ate. had sex. got caught having sex. ran away in embarassment and hid for the rest of the night on the top deck, playing basketball and ping pong. thought about getting married. looked for the chapel. couldn't find the chapel. gave up on the idea. ate. gambled. lost $70 at ultimate texas holdem. gambled. pj won $70 back at roulette. got drunk of duty-free liquor with titot while playing pusoy dos. stumbled to the bar and talked to this guy forever about football. was drunk enough to go to the casino again. gambled. broke even again. ate. hung out in the jacuzzi. ate again. ate so much, i think i gained near 10 lbs. burned a good amount off though lol. went to PARADISE ISLAND! saw Atlantis, resisted the casino, hung out on the white sandy beaches... perfectly clear water. tito joey got stung by a jellyfish. ran to the boat, but everything was fine. did the tourist thing, shopper thing and beach bum thing. went to Norwegian's private island. beautiful :-). tried to hike to the lighthouse, but decided it was too far. tried to have sex on the hidden, secluded area of the beach. couldnt shake our company. got back on the boat. had sex again. almost got caught again. FAIL. ate. got hook ups with the 85% filipino crew, including a feast of filipino food especially for us on the last day lol. had a wonderful conversation in the quiet area of the deck with titot and pj. saw a shooting star :-). (shoothing star!). in short, fell in love with the cruise life. In Joan's late husband's words... I was born to cruise. Or at least vacation. decided right then and there to start saving for the next cruise next year. or save for the next 3 yrs or so and SPLURGE on an italy excursion. hmm. leaning towards the 2nd one lol.

and now i'm back to the 'real world' you know... the one that sucks. lol j/k it's really not that bad. I just know I worked my ass off this summer and am pretty tired of it.

sorry i kinda gave up with the 6 weeks posting, but i didn't give up on the 6 weeks goals. i think i am a better me already :-D