b/c the "what's on your mind" thing on facebook could not fit this bullshit

AHHHHHHHHHHHH i'm losing my mind.

i can count on one hand the amount of things i've wanted as bad as a real chance in publishing. lol. it's so crazy. for being something that i've only been relatively recently introduced to, it's taking over my aspirations in an exponential manner to the point where I can't imagine anything i'd rather do for a career. it's pretty ridiculous. i have 3 people to thank for this: 1st, Jane Lee!!! for putting it into my head and getting me to research the industry enough to really pique my interest. 2nd, Georgia Fowler... my supposed academic adviser whom i've only met once, who posted in her email updates the open opportunity at the Press, and 3rd, Allison Hack... for liking me enough to hire me haha. and of course, the rest: the endless searching on bookjobs, penguin, random house, simon and schuster, hachette, subscribing to publisher's weekly, and all the other information and awareness I so eagerly hunt out, haha, that's all to blame on my hyper-active hopes for the future. the very same hyper-activity that's keeping me awake 2:30 in the AM trying to plan out the most efficient and realistic course of action for the next 3 years. lol. ugh. i hate it sometimes.
but right now, i'm eager and excited and ready to wake and write some cover letters lmao. probably not going to happen, but whatever.
anyway, this blog is just the product of too many hours of possibilities presented to me and my need to get back in touch with my normal consciousness. haha.

until tomorrow...